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she/her. (fandom sideblog: nurseydexunsolved)
"We are living in an immaterial world (a ghost world) and I am an immaterial girl (a ghost)." im tired of updating my age every year and exposing how long ive been here but im over 18 ok trust

despite the fact that jud's form and view of christianity is a very pleasant one, i appreciate that no part of benoit blanc is converted. it's not like i expected benoit to become a christian obviously, but i expected him to potentially stay for a service at the end, when invited. or to show appreciation for what jud is building at his church. even just appreciation that he's welcome.

after the whole movie, when benoit is given the invite, he still says there's nothing he wants less than to stay in that church. it's very, very reasonable and realistic of a traumatized atheist, but i almost never see it depicted in this way. usually they come around to "see the beauty" in one way or another. i just really appreciate that they didn't do that.

I think what stands out to me is the Road to Damascus scene. Benoit doesn't convert, because being religious does not automatically make you a good person. You don't need it, it's a community and system that should not be a requirement, it can help you grow and shape you, but it has it's negatives (which many queer religious people have dealt with, including me). Benoit does not convert, but he is positively influenced by Jud. Jud talks about Damascus, and Benoit ends the movie by ending the game. He "loses", so that Martha has the chance to truly confess and repent, in fact realizing that Grace was a victim.

Benoit did "see the beauty", but not in the church. He saw it in the hope, acceptance, and genuine kindness that Jud had in him. He was changed by the people, not the organization

Sometimes you will be a lesbian to your parents and a straight man to your partners parents and a gay man to your partner and a woman to your grandparents and out to your friends and stealth to your classmates and a nice young lady to the cashier at the coffee shop and then people on your computer will ask you to choose which of these identities you ACTUALLY are and which you are Appropriating The Oppression Of because don’t you know they contract each other. You can only be one thing solidly forever

2026

  • public transit can be your friend
  • any city is walkable if you arent a pussy
  • you need to leave home
  • shoot your phone
  • get into acts of creation

a lot of good songs by men fit into the genre category of "i enjoy this but if the woman this song is about shot the singer in the face point blank and i was in the jury i would move towards nullification"

really glad somebody successfully tagged the musician i was listening to at the time in under 24 hours

life is a series of cycles. right now im in the part where i’ve forgotten how much i hate running so im gonna go for a run because what if this time

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