hi

i wasn't going to say anything but life update.

My mental health is probably the worst its ever been. I can't really even take care of myself. im dropping out of university and going back to live with my family, and I'm also hopefully not going on social media again for the forseeable future

University was always fucked. the first year i went i failed half of all my courses. It's gotten better but i realized i can't continue. Trying to switch majors or universities requires grades i just don't have, and i can't do what i wanted to.

Real life sucks and the internet is worse. two years later the shitty drama i was in hasnt left. i dont think it ever will go away. one of the most recent events i found out they were sent the callout by multiple different people. a year and a half after.

Ive really tried a lot to reach out and make friends and groups of people i enjoy but either nothing happens and it fades out immediately or they find out what happened have a bunch of shitty ideas about who i am as a person and then leave.

It's been completely aimless as to why I'm even on here anymore. I've been getting more and more hostile to people, I haven't been doing anything i enjoy. for a while i stayed here because i felt like i could build towards something larger, it would help kickstart something like maybe youtube or game development, but i dont have a future here.

other events have happened which i dont want to get into but in summary everything sucks both online and offline so im removing myself from online to try and gain some amount of sanity back.

it's been so fucking hard lately I've been having a lot of breakdowns which have caused more issues for myself in a positive feedback loop so i need to cut it off.

Dont be very woried about me since i deserve all of this

pardon me as this is probably going to be my messiest post i have ever made and I do not even expect anything good from this, I am just to my limit of this "holier than thou" bullshit everyone seems to love to put people through on here.

I typically say nothing bc this is not what i want to do w my time, and its also none of anyones business of the things that happen in the people i loves life but this pisses me off.

rassicas. You're talking about some "incident" which happened roughly 6 fucking months ago and barely has anything to do with you, or moreso you really wished it had nothing to do with you. Now all of a sudden, you decide it does? you decide you actually want to make a post about this?

This is genuinely just such high horse garbage and trying to do some delayed post about morality to make you feel like you actually did anything at all during this. Instead you ignored everyone and made it about you.

The incident you're talking about is my partner sharing a traumatic experience with you and the people you hang around, which they then got completely blocked away after initial support solely because you found out the content of the messages and didn't actually give a fuck about the actual issue that happened at hand, you just got mad abt fictional kink, and proceeded to let the people you're friends with harass and torment my partner for mulitple years-old accusations that were initially supported to their face and, of course, taboo fictional media.

Listen. its completely fine to have boundaries. its completely fine to be uncomfortable from this sort of content, i also have my own boundaries and discomforts. the problem is that you made this post about a situation you actually took no action in at all and are now making a post about it like you did, and making a post about it probably because you're upset that the people you drop and turn on a dime can feel hurt. god forbid someone be hurt about the same situation you're also hurt about. And on top of that, posting about how "if you dont bother me i wont bother you " as if you didnt actually allow the harassment of my partner to happen.

Thats the type of thing i don't like about this. you made this post and these tags because you probably feel guilt and are trying really hard to convince yourself that youre actually a really #ethical #antiharassment #influencer when you did in fact do the things you are saying you didn't, and just making up bullshit in the tags to make it seem so much more worse and yucky than it actually was.

Cut the bullshit and grow up. you couldve just made a reasonable post (again, being upset with this content is reasonable), but instead you did whatever tf this is.

i am so fucking serious shut the hell up with "trans women vs trans men" stuff.

love and appreciate trans men. don't make up bullshit about how different they are to trans women, and how one is better than the other. and i consistently see trans men get the shit end of it.

I've unfollowed so many fucking people because people are constantly trying to say so much shit constantly pitting them against eachother for seemingly no fucking reason. I'm sorry as someone who is non binary, trans men and trans women are basically the same. because. men and women are also basically the fucking same. stop with this binary black-and-white shit

love trans men

any time you see or want to use the words TMA/TME (trans misogyny affected/exempt) used think:

I've seen people using the terms TMA and TME just fine. some of these are a bit extreme but ive definitely seen people use these terms in some of the shitty ways described. I'm saying is, just be wary you're not falling into any of these pitfalls, and be wary of times you hear it used

this kinda works btw.

part of the reason i stopped using twitter because i deleted the app off my phone and only used the shitty mobile web app.

unfortunately everything else on twitter is designed to hurt to use, so users may already be used to this

[Video transcript:] Person angrily yelling: “–fucking computers bullshit. It’s fucking sick! It’s not cool anymore! It’s not fun! It’s not fun to be on the fucking computer! They changed everything about it! It used to be so coooool!”

literally saying this every day of my life

i swear to god Tumblr's "Goth Rave" theme does not follow accessibility contrast guidelines, which would be fine because theres like 15 other themes, but why does seemingly everyone use it. i cannot read your screenshots.

"Low Contrast Classic" has higher contrast than "Goth Rave"

(also it does pass but i feel like i'm bad with less contrasting tex- wait no these guidelines are made for people like me what the hell do you mean this passes)

it's not the worst theme tumblr's made at least

i swear to god Tumblr's "Goth Rave" theme does not follow accessibility contrast guidelines, which would be fine because theres like 15 other themes, but why does seemingly everyone use it. i cannot read your screenshots.

"Low Contrast Classic" has higher contrast than "Goth Rave"

(also it does pass but i feel like i'm bad with less contrasting tex- wait no these guidelines are made for people like me what the hell do you mean this passes)

lil acht and rina