@meeksandgeeks

Where do I start...? This has all been so... crazy... the last few days ahhaha

I guess I'll start with, im so fucking sorry. Im sorry that I hurt you so much, especially at first. I know you told me to stop apologizing, but at least let me get one in. ;) i still hurt you so let me take accountability for that, im so sorry I love you so fuckibg much.

I guess thats another thjng that should be addressed haha. I feel like ive said it a million times over but its true. i promise its true. No matter what. i love you meeksie so so much <3

but I dont want you to get hurt. so i guess ill tell you now... i talked to knox, a bit. even keating, for a few minutes. and they helped me to realize that I dont feel those kind of emotions towards... well, anyone, girl or guy or whoever.

regardless, loving you is about the closest I can get to that. i just dont want you to be disappointed that it's not that. if you dont wanna... do this anymore with me, i get it. i swear i get it. i think ill keep loving you anyways but yeah haha

i really do love you meeksie. i love when you stutter and when you read your poems at the cave and when you look so happy when you do well on a test snd when you invite me to study (even when you kick pittsie out) and your freckles and when youre thinking really hard about something and you take your glasses off to clean them and even without the dirty blonde hair :) i know its not quite in the same way that you love me, but I think ive made my peace with that. or I'm at least starting to lol.

if youre fine with, well, something in the middle, im fine with that too. not dating, or whatever, but, like you said, more than friends. i dont think id like to date anyone. not like that. but other than that im fine as long as youre here :)

so... consider it? (and maybe dying your hair as the next order of business:)

i lovr you

Uhm wow..cam :)

First of all, i love you too :)) so much..and second, for someone who doesn’t love me like that you sure say it a lot 😌 but all jokes aside, it’s really okay that you don’t feel that way, there’s nothing wrong with that :)

This is longer than my confession letter, pass it to Mr. Keating and you’ll be top of the class :)))

Are you proposing right now, cameron? :)))) because if you are, I’m considering it. And i’m gonna say yes. :)))

(No dyeing of hair)

well, mr keating inspired me to write it, at least sort of, so... (and bold of you to assume Im not already top of the class haha:)

... are you sure? I just really, really dont want you to feel like youre putting more into this than youre getting out. i dont want you to get stuck with someone who doesnt truly reciprocate, not really, if thats not what you want.

... You realize, right, that no matter how much i say i love you its not the same? It isn't and nrver will be... I just dont want you to waste your teen years or whatever with me. maybe thats stupid. i dont know.

but in that case, steven, maybe I am. ;)

(im not sure about it if you refuse to dye your hair though...:)

Richard, you don’t get to decide what’s a waste for me :p

I hear what you’re saying. I really do. And I know you’re trying to protect me, that’s kind of you. But liking you doesn’t feel like I’m losing something. It feels like I’m choosing something. I’m not asking you to promise me anything. I’m not asking for forever, or labels. And if someday it hurts, then I’ll deal with that when it comes. I’d rather risk caring than pretend I don’t.

And you’re right. Whatever you feel will never match what I feel. I know that. I’m not confused about it. I just don’t think feelings have to be equal to be worth having. I don’t need it to turn into something bigger to justify it, cam :)) i love you :)

And i don’t feel stuck, cam..i feel free actually :)

(I don’t think I’d survive Welton with dyed hair anyway. The administration would demerit my action.. :/ you know how i feel about demerits..)

fuck yku steven, making me cry twice jn one day huh.?

and i know you know that, i just.... I guess i dont want you tk regret this. and i dont want yiu to get hurt if things arent what you expectdd. no matter how much byllshit you spew about "feelints dont havebto be equal".

but if it was forever.. j dont think id mind :)

i love yiu so so much

(and yeag, try nkt to get a demerit pleasr. once we gr aduate maybe...)

I do have that effect on you huh :)))

Trust me I won’t regret this :) but i think getting hurt is inevitable, cam. It only means we tried and cared :) and it’s worth it and will always be worth it :)

Forever learning and laughing with you? I don’t see why not :)))

I love you too cam :))

(Yeah once we graduate, ill give you the wig :p)

i guess you do... :))

why wkuld it be worth it if i'm just gonna hurt you? cause I rrally dont want you to be, honestyl. i never want to see you hurt and espercjally not at my hand. if i ckuld shut a door and portect you frpm the rest kf the world j would, and jf tbat means im on the other side of jt too im okay with that. i love you so much bht maybr itd be better if we never did tbjs... for you, yknkw? :)

i lpve you jm sorry

(and jf you wont dye tour hair there will be avsolutely no wig giving euther haha)

I know you want to protect me, cam :) but no :) i say we do this :) i’m okay…it’s you I’m more worried, i really am ok :)

And remember? No more apologizing:))))

I love you too cam :))

(Awww fine :p)

Dont worry about me. plrase.

just... tell me if yiu ever feel that way, promise? i dont wanna feel like im... taking advantage of you i guess.

but ib okay with dojng this if you are. I love you so os much j really do.

yeah yrah whatever :))

(im sorry meekdie I know you really wabted to see me in that blsck wig every day... :)

I know you’ll never take advantage of me or anyone ever. :)))

I really am okay with doing this :))

Say itt…

(Im thinking charlie wants it more actually…i like you being a redhead, something we have in common;)

well... im okay with it if you are :)

fine if gou really want mr to... i love you so so much, yourd my favorite person, youre thr best sort-of-friend I couldve asked for, in the winter cold youre thr summer sun-- okay that was stupid but thr point is i love you. i lovr you so much it hurts sometimes. even if its not in the same way you love me I promise its true. sorry for trhe paragraph but yeah haha.

(i think both of us look prettier with red hair snyway... im still nkt sure if its legal though 🤔)

That’s actually pretty good hahah :)))

I love your red hair :)) and your freckles :))

(Why wouldn’t it be legal??? :/ )

I know :) you almost inspjred me to write poetry on my own time, steven 🙃

you flatter me haha

(you never know what the laws are on two redheads gettibg married 🤷‍♂️... if thats still a thing were thinking about at least:)

I should read some of your poems sometime:))))

Oh come on, sure it cant be that bad? It’s just hair color ://

yeah, maybe not... Ive only written a couple outside of keating's class and they suck anyway haha... I could read your poems too... you're top of the class I'm sure they're great :)

fair... Charlie was the one that questioned it in the first place lol

speaking of charlie... what are we going to do with this information? as in, are we telling people... or whatever. I'd barely know what to do in a normal situation much less this so if you have any ideas... haha

Oh come on, cam :)) they suck? I can be the judge of that :)))

I do have some poems i wanna show to you :))

Hmm, i wasn’t planning on saying anything…yet :) i kinda want them to be suspicious and guess :)) what do you think? Plus, i think it’ll be fun to mess with them hahaha

you're not an english teacher though :)

Im very excited to read... If you want... we could meet after school today. I have to study for some things anyway, so I could use your help, Mr. Genius. 🙃 and if you'd like... you could bring some poems to show me :))

neither was I haha. i'm fine with that... I'm always up for messing with our friends :)

but in all seriousness, if it does come to that i'd like to keep it a little quiet. I don't want to have to explain it to people, especially explain me. plus I dont really want it getting back to the administration or my parents ahaha, i'm sure you understand

I’m not but i’m meeks :)))

I mean uh most of them are about you so, please be reminded heh 🙂‍↕️ and yeah sure we can study! :)

I wasn’t planning on telling them about it actually, i mean what’s important is we resolved it to each other so im content with that :)

@meeksandgeeks

Where do I start...? This has all been so... crazy... the last few days ahhaha

I guess I'll start with, im so fucking sorry. Im sorry that I hurt you so much, especially at first. I know you told me to stop apologizing, but at least let me get one in. ;) i still hurt you so let me take accountability for that, im so sorry I love you so fuckibg much.

I guess thats another thjng that should be addressed haha. I feel like ive said it a million times over but its true. i promise its true. No matter what. i love you meeksie so so much <3

but I dont want you to get hurt. so i guess ill tell you now... i talked to knox, a bit. even keating, for a few minutes. and they helped me to realize that I dont feel those kind of emotions towards... well, anyone, girl or guy or whoever.

regardless, loving you is about the closest I can get to that. i just dont want you to be disappointed that it's not that. if you dont wanna... do this anymore with me, i get it. i swear i get it. i think ill keep loving you anyways but yeah haha

i really do love you meeksie. i love when you stutter and when you read your poems at the cave and when you look so happy when you do well on a test snd when you invite me to study (even when you kick pittsie out) and your freckles and when youre thinking really hard about something and you take your glasses off to clean them and even without the dirty blonde hair :) i know its not quite in the same way that you love me, but I think ive made my peace with that. or I'm at least starting to lol.

if youre fine with, well, something in the middle, im fine with that too. not dating, or whatever, but, like you said, more than friends. i dont think id like to date anyone. not like that. but other than that im fine as long as youre here :)

so... consider it? (and maybe dying your hair as the next order of business:)

i lovr you

Uhm wow..cam :)

First of all, i love you too :)) so much..and second, for someone who doesn’t love me like that you sure say it a lot 😌 but all jokes aside, it’s really okay that you don’t feel that way, there’s nothing wrong with that :)

This is longer than my confession letter, pass it to Mr. Keating and you’ll be top of the class :)))

Are you proposing right now, cameron? :)))) because if you are, I’m considering it. And i’m gonna say yes. :)))

(No dyeing of hair)

well, mr keating inspired me to write it, at least sort of, so... (and bold of you to assume Im not already top of the class haha:)

... are you sure? I just really, really dont want you to feel like youre putting more into this than youre getting out. i dont want you to get stuck with someone who doesnt truly reciprocate, not really, if thats not what you want.

... You realize, right, that no matter how much i say i love you its not the same? It isn't and nrver will be... I just dont want you to waste your teen years or whatever with me. maybe thats stupid. i dont know.

but in that case, steven, maybe I am. ;)

(im not sure about it if you refuse to dye your hair though...:)

Richard, you don’t get to decide what’s a waste for me :p

I hear what you’re saying. I really do. And I know you’re trying to protect me, that’s kind of you. But liking you doesn’t feel like I’m losing something. It feels like I’m choosing something. I’m not asking you to promise me anything. I’m not asking for forever, or labels. And if someday it hurts, then I’ll deal with that when it comes. I’d rather risk caring than pretend I don’t.

And you’re right. Whatever you feel will never match what I feel. I know that. I’m not confused about it. I just don’t think feelings have to be equal to be worth having. I don’t need it to turn into something bigger to justify it, cam :)) i love you :)

And i don’t feel stuck, cam..i feel free actually :)

(I don’t think I’d survive Welton with dyed hair anyway. The administration would demerit my action.. :/ you know how i feel about demerits..)

fuck yku steven, making me cry twice jn one day huh.?

and i know you know that, i just.... I guess i dont want you tk regret this. and i dont want yiu to get hurt if things arent what you expectdd. no matter how much byllshit you spew about "feelints dont havebto be equal".

but if it was forever.. j dont think id mind :)

i love yiu so so much

(and yeag, try nkt to get a demerit pleasr. once we gr aduate maybe...)

I do have that effect on you huh :)))

Trust me I won’t regret this :) but i think getting hurt is inevitable, cam. It only means we tried and cared :) and it’s worth it and will always be worth it :)

Forever learning and laughing with you? I don’t see why not :)))

I love you too cam :))

(Yeah once we graduate, ill give you the wig :p)

i guess you do... :))

why wkuld it be worth it if i'm just gonna hurt you? cause I rrally dont want you to be, honestyl. i never want to see you hurt and espercjally not at my hand. if i ckuld shut a door and portect you frpm the rest kf the world j would, and jf tbat means im on the other side of jt too im okay with that. i love you so much bht maybr itd be better if we never did tbjs... for you, yknkw? :)

i lpve you jm sorry

(and jf you wont dye tour hair there will be avsolutely no wig giving euther haha)

I know you want to protect me, cam :) but no :) i say we do this :) i’m okay…it’s you I’m more worried, i really am ok :)

And remember? No more apologizing:))))

I love you too cam :))

(Awww fine :p)

Dont worry about me. plrase.

just... tell me if yiu ever feel that way, promise? i dont wanna feel like im... taking advantage of you i guess.

but ib okay with dojng this if you are. I love you so os much j really do.

yeah yrah whatever :))

(im sorry meekdie I know you really wabted to see me in that blsck wig every day... :)

I know you’ll never take advantage of me or anyone ever. :)))

I really am okay with doing this :))

Say itt…

(Im thinking charlie wants it more actually…i like you being a redhead, something we have in common;)

well... im okay with it if you are :)

fine if gou really want mr to... i love you so so much, yourd my favorite person, youre thr best sort-of-friend I couldve asked for, in the winter cold youre thr summer sun-- okay that was stupid but thr point is i love you. i lovr you so much it hurts sometimes. even if its not in the same way you love me I promise its true. sorry for trhe paragraph but yeah haha.

(i think both of us look prettier with red hair snyway... im still nkt sure if its legal though 🤔)

That’s actually pretty good hahah :)))

I love your red hair :)) and your freckles :))

(Why wouldn’t it be legal??? :/ )

I know :) you almost inspjred me to write poetry on my own time, steven 🙃

you flatter me haha

(you never know what the laws are on two redheads gettibg married 🤷‍♂️... if thats still a thing were thinking about at least:)

I should read some of your poems sometime:))))

Oh come on, sure it cant be that bad? It’s just hair color ://

yeah, maybe not... Ive only written a couple outside of keating's class and they suck anyway haha... I could read your poems too... you're top of the class I'm sure they're great :)

fair... Charlie was the one that questioned it in the first place lol

speaking of charlie... what are we going to do with this information? as in, are we telling people... or whatever. I'd barely know what to do in a normal situation much less this so if you have any ideas... haha

Oh come on, cam :)) they suck? I can be the judge of that :)))

I do have some poems i wanna show to you :))

Hmm, i wasn’t planning on saying anything…yet :) i kinda want them to be suspicious and guess :)) what do you think? Plus, i think it’ll be fun to mess with them hahaha

@meeksandgeeks

Where do I start...? This has all been so... crazy... the last few days ahhaha

I guess I'll start with, im so fucking sorry. Im sorry that I hurt you so much, especially at first. I know you told me to stop apologizing, but at least let me get one in. ;) i still hurt you so let me take accountability for that, im so sorry I love you so fuckibg much.

I guess thats another thjng that should be addressed haha. I feel like ive said it a million times over but its true. i promise its true. No matter what. i love you meeksie so so much <3

but I dont want you to get hurt. so i guess ill tell you now... i talked to knox, a bit. even keating, for a few minutes. and they helped me to realize that I dont feel those kind of emotions towards... well, anyone, girl or guy or whoever.

regardless, loving you is about the closest I can get to that. i just dont want you to be disappointed that it's not that. if you dont wanna... do this anymore with me, i get it. i swear i get it. i think ill keep loving you anyways but yeah haha

i really do love you meeksie. i love when you stutter and when you read your poems at the cave and when you look so happy when you do well on a test snd when you invite me to study (even when you kick pittsie out) and your freckles and when youre thinking really hard about something and you take your glasses off to clean them and even without the dirty blonde hair :) i know its not quite in the same way that you love me, but I think ive made my peace with that. or I'm at least starting to lol.

if youre fine with, well, something in the middle, im fine with that too. not dating, or whatever, but, like you said, more than friends. i dont think id like to date anyone. not like that. but other than that im fine as long as youre here :)

so... consider it? (and maybe dying your hair as the next order of business:)

i lovr you

Uhm wow..cam :)

First of all, i love you too :)) so much..and second, for someone who doesn’t love me like that you sure say it a lot 😌 but all jokes aside, it’s really okay that you don’t feel that way, there’s nothing wrong with that :)

This is longer than my confession letter, pass it to Mr. Keating and you’ll be top of the class :)))

Are you proposing right now, cameron? :)))) because if you are, I’m considering it. And i’m gonna say yes. :)))

(No dyeing of hair)

well, mr keating inspired me to write it, at least sort of, so... (and bold of you to assume Im not already top of the class haha:)

... are you sure? I just really, really dont want you to feel like youre putting more into this than youre getting out. i dont want you to get stuck with someone who doesnt truly reciprocate, not really, if thats not what you want.

... You realize, right, that no matter how much i say i love you its not the same? It isn't and nrver will be... I just dont want you to waste your teen years or whatever with me. maybe thats stupid. i dont know.

but in that case, steven, maybe I am. ;)

(im not sure about it if you refuse to dye your hair though...:)

Richard, you don’t get to decide what’s a waste for me :p

I hear what you’re saying. I really do. And I know you’re trying to protect me, that’s kind of you. But liking you doesn’t feel like I’m losing something. It feels like I’m choosing something. I’m not asking you to promise me anything. I’m not asking for forever, or labels. And if someday it hurts, then I’ll deal with that when it comes. I’d rather risk caring than pretend I don’t.

And you’re right. Whatever you feel will never match what I feel. I know that. I’m not confused about it. I just don’t think feelings have to be equal to be worth having. I don’t need it to turn into something bigger to justify it, cam :)) i love you :)

And i don’t feel stuck, cam..i feel free actually :)

(I don’t think I’d survive Welton with dyed hair anyway. The administration would demerit my action.. :/ you know how i feel about demerits..)

fuck yku steven, making me cry twice jn one day huh.?

and i know you know that, i just.... I guess i dont want you tk regret this. and i dont want yiu to get hurt if things arent what you expectdd. no matter how much byllshit you spew about "feelints dont havebto be equal".

but if it was forever.. j dont think id mind :)

i love yiu so so much

(and yeag, try nkt to get a demerit pleasr. once we gr aduate maybe...)

I do have that effect on you huh :)))

Trust me I won’t regret this :) but i think getting hurt is inevitable, cam. It only means we tried and cared :) and it’s worth it and will always be worth it :)

Forever learning and laughing with you? I don’t see why not :)))

I love you too cam :))

(Yeah once we graduate, ill give you the wig :p)

i guess you do... :))

why wkuld it be worth it if i'm just gonna hurt you? cause I rrally dont want you to be, honestyl. i never want to see you hurt and espercjally not at my hand. if i ckuld shut a door and portect you frpm the rest kf the world j would, and jf tbat means im on the other side of jt too im okay with that. i love you so much bht maybr itd be better if we never did tbjs... for you, yknkw? :)

i lpve you jm sorry

(and jf you wont dye tour hair there will be avsolutely no wig giving euther haha)

I know you want to protect me, cam :) but no :) i say we do this :) i’m okay…it’s you I’m more worried, i really am ok :)

And remember? No more apologizing:))))

I love you too cam :))

(Awww fine :p)

Dont worry about me. plrase.

just... tell me if yiu ever feel that way, promise? i dont wanna feel like im... taking advantage of you i guess.

but ib okay with dojng this if you are. I love you so os much j really do.

yeah yrah whatever :))

(im sorry meekdie I know you really wabted to see me in that blsck wig every day... :)

I know you’ll never take advantage of me or anyone ever. :)))

I really am okay with doing this :))

Say itt…

(Im thinking charlie wants it more actually…i like you being a redhead, something we have in common;)

well... im okay with it if you are :)

fine if gou really want mr to... i love you so so much, yourd my favorite person, youre thr best sort-of-friend I couldve asked for, in the winter cold youre thr summer sun-- okay that was stupid but thr point is i love you. i lovr you so much it hurts sometimes. even if its not in the same way you love me I promise its true. sorry for trhe paragraph but yeah haha.

(i think both of us look prettier with red hair snyway... im still nkt sure if its legal though 🤔)

That’s actually pretty good hahah :)))

I love your red hair :)) and your freckles :))

(Why wouldn’t it be legal??? :/ )

I know :) you almost inspjred me to write poetry on my own time, steven 🙃

you flatter me haha

(you never know what the laws are on two redheads gettibg married 🤷‍♂️... if thats still a thing were thinking about at least:)

I should read some of your poems sometime:))))

Oh come on, sure it cant be that bad? It’s just hair color ://

@meeksandgeeks

Where do I start...? This has all been so... crazy... the last few days ahhaha

I guess I'll start with, im so fucking sorry. Im sorry that I hurt you so much, especially at first. I know you told me to stop apologizing, but at least let me get one in. ;) i still hurt you so let me take accountability for that, im so sorry I love you so fuckibg much.

I guess thats another thjng that should be addressed haha. I feel like ive said it a million times over but its true. i promise its true. No matter what. i love you meeksie so so much <3

but I dont want you to get hurt. so i guess ill tell you now... i talked to knox, a bit. even keating, for a few minutes. and they helped me to realize that I dont feel those kind of emotions towards... well, anyone, girl or guy or whoever.

regardless, loving you is about the closest I can get to that. i just dont want you to be disappointed that it's not that. if you dont wanna... do this anymore with me, i get it. i swear i get it. i think ill keep loving you anyways but yeah haha

i really do love you meeksie. i love when you stutter and when you read your poems at the cave and when you look so happy when you do well on a test snd when you invite me to study (even when you kick pittsie out) and your freckles and when youre thinking really hard about something and you take your glasses off to clean them and even without the dirty blonde hair :) i know its not quite in the same way that you love me, but I think ive made my peace with that. or I'm at least starting to lol.

if youre fine with, well, something in the middle, im fine with that too. not dating, or whatever, but, like you said, more than friends. i dont think id like to date anyone. not like that. but other than that im fine as long as youre here :)

so... consider it? (and maybe dying your hair as the next order of business:)

i lovr you

Uhm wow..cam :)

First of all, i love you too :)) so much..and second, for someone who doesn’t love me like that you sure say it a lot 😌 but all jokes aside, it’s really okay that you don’t feel that way, there’s nothing wrong with that :)

This is longer than my confession letter, pass it to Mr. Keating and you’ll be top of the class :)))

Are you proposing right now, cameron? :)))) because if you are, I’m considering it. And i’m gonna say yes. :)))

(No dyeing of hair)

well, mr keating inspired me to write it, at least sort of, so... (and bold of you to assume Im not already top of the class haha:)

... are you sure? I just really, really dont want you to feel like youre putting more into this than youre getting out. i dont want you to get stuck with someone who doesnt truly reciprocate, not really, if thats not what you want.

... You realize, right, that no matter how much i say i love you its not the same? It isn't and nrver will be... I just dont want you to waste your teen years or whatever with me. maybe thats stupid. i dont know.

but in that case, steven, maybe I am. ;)

(im not sure about it if you refuse to dye your hair though...:)

Richard, you don’t get to decide what’s a waste for me :p

I hear what you’re saying. I really do. And I know you’re trying to protect me, that’s kind of you. But liking you doesn’t feel like I’m losing something. It feels like I’m choosing something. I’m not asking you to promise me anything. I’m not asking for forever, or labels. And if someday it hurts, then I’ll deal with that when it comes. I’d rather risk caring than pretend I don’t.

And you’re right. Whatever you feel will never match what I feel. I know that. I’m not confused about it. I just don’t think feelings have to be equal to be worth having. I don’t need it to turn into something bigger to justify it, cam :)) i love you :)

And i don’t feel stuck, cam..i feel free actually :)

(I don’t think I’d survive Welton with dyed hair anyway. The administration would demerit my action.. :/ you know how i feel about demerits..)

fuck yku steven, making me cry twice jn one day huh.?

and i know you know that, i just.... I guess i dont want you tk regret this. and i dont want yiu to get hurt if things arent what you expectdd. no matter how much byllshit you spew about "feelints dont havebto be equal".

but if it was forever.. j dont think id mind :)

i love yiu so so much

(and yeag, try nkt to get a demerit pleasr. once we gr aduate maybe...)

I do have that effect on you huh :)))

Trust me I won’t regret this :) but i think getting hurt is inevitable, cam. It only means we tried and cared :) and it’s worth it and will always be worth it :)

Forever learning and laughing with you? I don’t see why not :)))

I love you too cam :))

(Yeah once we graduate, ill give you the wig :p)

i guess you do... :))

why wkuld it be worth it if i'm just gonna hurt you? cause I rrally dont want you to be, honestyl. i never want to see you hurt and espercjally not at my hand. if i ckuld shut a door and portect you frpm the rest kf the world j would, and jf tbat means im on the other side of jt too im okay with that. i love you so much bht maybr itd be better if we never did tbjs... for you, yknkw? :)

i lpve you jm sorry

(and jf you wont dye tour hair there will be avsolutely no wig giving euther haha)

I know you want to protect me, cam :) but no :) i say we do this :) i’m okay…it’s you I’m more worried, i really am ok :)

And remember? No more apologizing:))))

I love you too cam :))

(Awww fine :p)

Dont worry about me. plrase.

just... tell me if yiu ever feel that way, promise? i dont wanna feel like im... taking advantage of you i guess.

but ib okay with dojng this if you are. I love you so os much j really do.

yeah yrah whatever :))

(im sorry meekdie I know you really wabted to see me in that blsck wig every day... :)

I know you’ll never take advantage of me or anyone ever. :)))

I really am okay with doing this :))

Say itt…

(Im thinking charlie wants it more actually…i like you being a redhead, something we have in common;)

well... im okay with it if you are :)

fine if gou really want mr to... i love you so so much, yourd my favorite person, youre thr best sort-of-friend I couldve asked for, in the winter cold youre thr summer sun-- okay that was stupid but thr point is i love you. i lovr you so much it hurts sometimes. even if its not in the same way you love me I promise its true. sorry for trhe paragraph but yeah haha.

(i think both of us look prettier with red hair snyway... im still nkt sure if its legal though 🤔)

That’s actually pretty good hahah :)))

I love your red hair :)) and your freckles :))

(Why wouldn’t it be legal??? :/ )

@meeksandgeeks

Where do I start...? This has all been so... crazy... the last few days ahhaha

I guess I'll start with, im so fucking sorry. Im sorry that I hurt you so much, especially at first. I know you told me to stop apologizing, but at least let me get one in. ;) i still hurt you so let me take accountability for that, im so sorry I love you so fuckibg much.

I guess thats another thjng that should be addressed haha. I feel like ive said it a million times over but its true. i promise its true. No matter what. i love you meeksie so so much <3

but I dont want you to get hurt. so i guess ill tell you now... i talked to knox, a bit. even keating, for a few minutes. and they helped me to realize that I dont feel those kind of emotions towards... well, anyone, girl or guy or whoever.

regardless, loving you is about the closest I can get to that. i just dont want you to be disappointed that it's not that. if you dont wanna... do this anymore with me, i get it. i swear i get it. i think ill keep loving you anyways but yeah haha

i really do love you meeksie. i love when you stutter and when you read your poems at the cave and when you look so happy when you do well on a test snd when you invite me to study (even when you kick pittsie out) and your freckles and when youre thinking really hard about something and you take your glasses off to clean them and even without the dirty blonde hair :) i know its not quite in the same way that you love me, but I think ive made my peace with that. or I'm at least starting to lol.

if youre fine with, well, something in the middle, im fine with that too. not dating, or whatever, but, like you said, more than friends. i dont think id like to date anyone. not like that. but other than that im fine as long as youre here :)

so... consider it? (and maybe dying your hair as the next order of business:)

i lovr you

Uhm wow..cam :)

First of all, i love you too :)) so much..and second, for someone who doesn’t love me like that you sure say it a lot 😌 but all jokes aside, it’s really okay that you don’t feel that way, there’s nothing wrong with that :)

This is longer than my confession letter, pass it to Mr. Keating and you’ll be top of the class :)))

Are you proposing right now, cameron? :)))) because if you are, I’m considering it. And i’m gonna say yes. :)))

(No dyeing of hair)

well, mr keating inspired me to write it, at least sort of, so... (and bold of you to assume Im not already top of the class haha:)

... are you sure? I just really, really dont want you to feel like youre putting more into this than youre getting out. i dont want you to get stuck with someone who doesnt truly reciprocate, not really, if thats not what you want.

... You realize, right, that no matter how much i say i love you its not the same? It isn't and nrver will be... I just dont want you to waste your teen years or whatever with me. maybe thats stupid. i dont know.

but in that case, steven, maybe I am. ;)

(im not sure about it if you refuse to dye your hair though...:)

Richard, you don’t get to decide what’s a waste for me :p

I hear what you’re saying. I really do. And I know you’re trying to protect me, that’s kind of you. But liking you doesn’t feel like I’m losing something. It feels like I’m choosing something. I’m not asking you to promise me anything. I’m not asking for forever, or labels. And if someday it hurts, then I’ll deal with that when it comes. I’d rather risk caring than pretend I don’t.

And you’re right. Whatever you feel will never match what I feel. I know that. I’m not confused about it. I just don’t think feelings have to be equal to be worth having. I don’t need it to turn into something bigger to justify it, cam :)) i love you :)

And i don’t feel stuck, cam..i feel free actually :)

(I don’t think I’d survive Welton with dyed hair anyway. The administration would demerit my action.. :/ you know how i feel about demerits..)

fuck yku steven, making me cry twice jn one day huh.?

and i know you know that, i just.... I guess i dont want you tk regret this. and i dont want yiu to get hurt if things arent what you expectdd. no matter how much byllshit you spew about "feelints dont havebto be equal".

but if it was forever.. j dont think id mind :)

i love yiu so so much

(and yeag, try nkt to get a demerit pleasr. once we gr aduate maybe...)

I do have that effect on you huh :)))

Trust me I won’t regret this :) but i think getting hurt is inevitable, cam. It only means we tried and cared :) and it’s worth it and will always be worth it :)

Forever learning and laughing with you? I don’t see why not :)))

I love you too cam :))

(Yeah once we graduate, ill give you the wig :p)

i guess you do... :))

why wkuld it be worth it if i'm just gonna hurt you? cause I rrally dont want you to be, honestyl. i never want to see you hurt and espercjally not at my hand. if i ckuld shut a door and portect you frpm the rest kf the world j would, and jf tbat means im on the other side of jt too im okay with that. i love you so much bht maybr itd be better if we never did tbjs... for you, yknkw? :)

i lpve you jm sorry

(and jf you wont dye tour hair there will be avsolutely no wig giving euther haha)

I know you want to protect me, cam :) but no :) i say we do this :) i’m okay…it’s you I’m more worried, i really am ok :)

And remember? No more apologizing:))))

I love you too cam :))

(Awww fine :p)

Dont worry about me. plrase.

just... tell me if yiu ever feel that way, promise? i dont wanna feel like im... taking advantage of you i guess.

but ib okay with dojng this if you are. I love you so os much j really do.

yeah yrah whatever :))

(im sorry meekdie I know you really wabted to see me in that blsck wig every day... :)

I know you’ll never take advantage of me or anyone ever. :)))

I really am okay with doing this :))

Say itt…

(Im thinking charlie wants it more actually…i like you being a redhead, something we have in common;)

@meeksandgeeks

Where do I start...? This has all been so... crazy... the last few days ahhaha

I guess I'll start with, im so fucking sorry. Im sorry that I hurt you so much, especially at first. I know you told me to stop apologizing, but at least let me get one in. ;) i still hurt you so let me take accountability for that, im so sorry I love you so fuckibg much.

I guess thats another thjng that should be addressed haha. I feel like ive said it a million times over but its true. i promise its true. No matter what. i love you meeksie so so much <3

but I dont want you to get hurt. so i guess ill tell you now... i talked to knox, a bit. even keating, for a few minutes. and they helped me to realize that I dont feel those kind of emotions towards... well, anyone, girl or guy or whoever.

regardless, loving you is about the closest I can get to that. i just dont want you to be disappointed that it's not that. if you dont wanna... do this anymore with me, i get it. i swear i get it. i think ill keep loving you anyways but yeah haha

i really do love you meeksie. i love when you stutter and when you read your poems at the cave and when you look so happy when you do well on a test snd when you invite me to study (even when you kick pittsie out) and your freckles and when youre thinking really hard about something and you take your glasses off to clean them and even without the dirty blonde hair :) i know its not quite in the same way that you love me, but I think ive made my peace with that. or I'm at least starting to lol.

if youre fine with, well, something in the middle, im fine with that too. not dating, or whatever, but, like you said, more than friends. i dont think id like to date anyone. not like that. but other than that im fine as long as youre here :)

so... consider it? (and maybe dying your hair as the next order of business:)

i lovr you

Uhm wow..cam :)

First of all, i love you too :)) so much..and second, for someone who doesn’t love me like that you sure say it a lot 😌 but all jokes aside, it’s really okay that you don’t feel that way, there’s nothing wrong with that :)

This is longer than my confession letter, pass it to Mr. Keating and you’ll be top of the class :)))

Are you proposing right now, cameron? :)))) because if you are, I’m considering it. And i’m gonna say yes. :)))

(No dyeing of hair)

well, mr keating inspired me to write it, at least sort of, so... (and bold of you to assume Im not already top of the class haha:)

... are you sure? I just really, really dont want you to feel like youre putting more into this than youre getting out. i dont want you to get stuck with someone who doesnt truly reciprocate, not really, if thats not what you want.

... You realize, right, that no matter how much i say i love you its not the same? It isn't and nrver will be... I just dont want you to waste your teen years or whatever with me. maybe thats stupid. i dont know.

but in that case, steven, maybe I am. ;)

(im not sure about it if you refuse to dye your hair though...:)

Richard, you don’t get to decide what’s a waste for me :p

I hear what you’re saying. I really do. And I know you’re trying to protect me, that’s kind of you. But liking you doesn’t feel like I’m losing something. It feels like I’m choosing something. I’m not asking you to promise me anything. I’m not asking for forever, or labels. And if someday it hurts, then I’ll deal with that when it comes. I’d rather risk caring than pretend I don’t.

And you’re right. Whatever you feel will never match what I feel. I know that. I’m not confused about it. I just don’t think feelings have to be equal to be worth having. I don’t need it to turn into something bigger to justify it, cam :)) i love you :)

And i don’t feel stuck, cam..i feel free actually :)

(I don’t think I’d survive Welton with dyed hair anyway. The administration would demerit my action.. :/ you know how i feel about demerits..)

fuck yku steven, making me cry twice jn one day huh.?

and i know you know that, i just.... I guess i dont want you tk regret this. and i dont want yiu to get hurt if things arent what you expectdd. no matter how much byllshit you spew about "feelints dont havebto be equal".

but if it was forever.. j dont think id mind :)

i love yiu so so much

(and yeag, try nkt to get a demerit pleasr. once we gr aduate maybe...)

I do have that effect on you huh :)))

Trust me I won’t regret this :) but i think getting hurt is inevitable, cam. It only means we tried and cared :) and it’s worth it and will always be worth it :)

Forever learning and laughing with you? I don’t see why not :)))

I love you too cam :))

(Yeah once we graduate, ill give you the wig :p)

i guess you do... :))

why wkuld it be worth it if i'm just gonna hurt you? cause I rrally dont want you to be, honestyl. i never want to see you hurt and espercjally not at my hand. if i ckuld shut a door and portect you frpm the rest kf the world j would, and jf tbat means im on the other side of jt too im okay with that. i love you so much bht maybr itd be better if we never did tbjs... for you, yknkw? :)

i lpve you jm sorry

(and jf you wont dye tour hair there will be avsolutely no wig giving euther haha)

I know you want to protect me, cam :) but no :) i say we do this :) i’m okay…it’s you I’m more worried, i really am ok :)

And remember? No more apologizing:))))

I love you too cam :))

(Awww fine :p)

@meeksandgeeks

Where do I start...? This has all been so... crazy... the last few days ahhaha

I guess I'll start with, im so fucking sorry. Im sorry that I hurt you so much, especially at first. I know you told me to stop apologizing, but at least let me get one in. ;) i still hurt you so let me take accountability for that, im so sorry I love you so fuckibg much.

I guess thats another thjng that should be addressed haha. I feel like ive said it a million times over but its true. i promise its true. No matter what. i love you meeksie so so much <3

but I dont want you to get hurt. so i guess ill tell you now... i talked to knox, a bit. even keating, for a few minutes. and they helped me to realize that I dont feel those kind of emotions towards... well, anyone, girl or guy or whoever.

regardless, loving you is about the closest I can get to that. i just dont want you to be disappointed that it's not that. if you dont wanna... do this anymore with me, i get it. i swear i get it. i think ill keep loving you anyways but yeah haha

i really do love you meeksie. i love when you stutter and when you read your poems at the cave and when you look so happy when you do well on a test snd when you invite me to study (even when you kick pittsie out) and your freckles and when youre thinking really hard about something and you take your glasses off to clean them and even without the dirty blonde hair :) i know its not quite in the same way that you love me, but I think ive made my peace with that. or I'm at least starting to lol.

if youre fine with, well, something in the middle, im fine with that too. not dating, or whatever, but, like you said, more than friends. i dont think id like to date anyone. not like that. but other than that im fine as long as youre here :)

so... consider it? (and maybe dying your hair as the next order of business:)

i lovr you

Uhm wow..cam :)

First of all, i love you too :)) so much..and second, for someone who doesn’t love me like that you sure say it a lot 😌 but all jokes aside, it’s really okay that you don’t feel that way, there’s nothing wrong with that :)

This is longer than my confession letter, pass it to Mr. Keating and you’ll be top of the class :)))

Are you proposing right now, cameron? :)))) because if you are, I’m considering it. And i’m gonna say yes. :)))

(No dyeing of hair)

well, mr keating inspired me to write it, at least sort of, so... (and bold of you to assume Im not already top of the class haha:)

... are you sure? I just really, really dont want you to feel like youre putting more into this than youre getting out. i dont want you to get stuck with someone who doesnt truly reciprocate, not really, if thats not what you want.

... You realize, right, that no matter how much i say i love you its not the same? It isn't and nrver will be... I just dont want you to waste your teen years or whatever with me. maybe thats stupid. i dont know.

but in that case, steven, maybe I am. ;)

(im not sure about it if you refuse to dye your hair though...:)

Richard, you don’t get to decide what’s a waste for me :p

I hear what you’re saying. I really do. And I know you’re trying to protect me, that’s kind of you. But liking you doesn’t feel like I’m losing something. It feels like I’m choosing something. I’m not asking you to promise me anything. I’m not asking for forever, or labels. And if someday it hurts, then I’ll deal with that when it comes. I’d rather risk caring than pretend I don’t.

And you’re right. Whatever you feel will never match what I feel. I know that. I’m not confused about it. I just don’t think feelings have to be equal to be worth having. I don’t need it to turn into something bigger to justify it, cam :)) i love you :)

And i don’t feel stuck, cam..i feel free actually :)

(I don’t think I’d survive Welton with dyed hair anyway. The administration would demerit my action.. :/ you know how i feel about demerits..)

fuck yku steven, making me cry twice jn one day huh.?

and i know you know that, i just.... I guess i dont want you tk regret this. and i dont want yiu to get hurt if things arent what you expectdd. no matter how much byllshit you spew about "feelints dont havebto be equal".

but if it was forever.. j dont think id mind :)

i love yiu so so much

(and yeag, try nkt to get a demerit pleasr. once we gr aduate maybe...)

I do have that effect on you huh :)))

Trust me I won’t regret this :) but i think getting hurt is inevitable, cam. It only means we tried and cared :) and it’s worth it and will always be worth it :)

Forever learning and laughing with you? I don’t see why not :)))

I love you too cam :))

(Yeah once we graduate, ill give you the wig :p)

@meeksandgeeks

Where do I start...? This has all been so... crazy... the last few days ahhaha

I guess I'll start with, im so fucking sorry. Im sorry that I hurt you so much, especially at first. I know you told me to stop apologizing, but at least let me get one in. ;) i still hurt you so let me take accountability for that, im so sorry I love you so fuckibg much.

I guess thats another thjng that should be addressed haha. I feel like ive said it a million times over but its true. i promise its true. No matter what. i love you meeksie so so much <3

but I dont want you to get hurt. so i guess ill tell you now... i talked to knox, a bit. even keating, for a few minutes. and they helped me to realize that I dont feel those kind of emotions towards... well, anyone, girl or guy or whoever.

regardless, loving you is about the closest I can get to that. i just dont want you to be disappointed that it's not that. if you dont wanna... do this anymore with me, i get it. i swear i get it. i think ill keep loving you anyways but yeah haha

i really do love you meeksie. i love when you stutter and when you read your poems at the cave and when you look so happy when you do well on a test snd when you invite me to study (even when you kick pittsie out) and your freckles and when youre thinking really hard about something and you take your glasses off to clean them and even without the dirty blonde hair :) i know its not quite in the same way that you love me, but I think ive made my peace with that. or I'm at least starting to lol.

if youre fine with, well, something in the middle, im fine with that too. not dating, or whatever, but, like you said, more than friends. i dont think id like to date anyone. not like that. but other than that im fine as long as youre here :)

so... consider it? (and maybe dying your hair as the next order of business:)

i lovr you

Uhm wow..cam :)

First of all, i love you too :)) so much..and second, for someone who doesn’t love me like that you sure say it a lot 😌 but all jokes aside, it’s really okay that you don’t feel that way, there’s nothing wrong with that :)

This is longer than my confession letter, pass it to Mr. Keating and you’ll be top of the class :)))

Are you proposing right now, cameron? :)))) because if you are, I’m considering it. And i’m gonna say yes. :)))

(No dyeing of hair)

well, mr keating inspired me to write it, at least sort of, so... (and bold of you to assume Im not already top of the class haha:)

... are you sure? I just really, really dont want you to feel like youre putting more into this than youre getting out. i dont want you to get stuck with someone who doesnt truly reciprocate, not really, if thats not what you want.

... You realize, right, that no matter how much i say i love you its not the same? It isn't and nrver will be... I just dont want you to waste your teen years or whatever with me. maybe thats stupid. i dont know.

but in that case, steven, maybe I am. ;)

(im not sure about it if you refuse to dye your hair though...:)

Richard, you don’t get to decide what’s a waste for me :p

I hear what you’re saying. I really do. And I know you’re trying to protect me, that’s kind of you. But liking you doesn’t feel like I’m losing something. It feels like I’m choosing something. I’m not asking you to promise me anything. I’m not asking for forever, or labels. And if someday it hurts, then I’ll deal with that when it comes. I’d rather risk caring than pretend I don’t.

And you’re right. Whatever you feel will never match what I feel. I know that. I’m not confused about it. I just don’t think feelings have to be equal to be worth having. I don’t need it to turn into something bigger to justify it, cam :)) i love you :)

And i don’t feel stuck, cam..i feel free actually :)

(I don’t think I’d survive Welton with dyed hair anyway. The administration would demerit my action.. :/ you know how i feel about demerits..)

@meeksandgeeks

Where do I start...? This has all been so... crazy... the last few days ahhaha

I guess I'll start with, im so fucking sorry. Im sorry that I hurt you so much, especially at first. I know you told me to stop apologizing, but at least let me get one in. ;) i still hurt you so let me take accountability for that, im so sorry I love you so fuckibg much.

I guess thats another thjng that should be addressed haha. I feel like ive said it a million times over but its true. i promise its true. No matter what. i love you meeksie so so much <3

but I dont want you to get hurt. so i guess ill tell you now... i talked to knox, a bit. even keating, for a few minutes. and they helped me to realize that I dont feel those kind of emotions towards... well, anyone, girl or guy or whoever.

regardless, loving you is about the closest I can get to that. i just dont want you to be disappointed that it's not that. if you dont wanna... do this anymore with me, i get it. i swear i get it. i think ill keep loving you anyways but yeah haha

i really do love you meeksie. i love when you stutter and when you read your poems at the cave and when you look so happy when you do well on a test snd when you invite me to study (even when you kick pittsie out) and your freckles and when youre thinking really hard about something and you take your glasses off to clean them and even without the dirty blonde hair :) i know its not quite in the same way that you love me, but I think ive made my peace with that. or I'm at least starting to lol.

if youre fine with, well, something in the middle, im fine with that too. not dating, or whatever, but, like you said, more than friends. i dont think id like to date anyone. not like that. but other than that im fine as long as youre here :)

so... consider it? (and maybe dying your hair as the next order of business:)

i lovr you

Uhm wow..cam :)

First of all, i love you too :)) so much..and second, for someone who doesn’t love me like that you sure say it a lot 😌 but all jokes aside, it’s really okay that you don’t feel that way, there’s nothing wrong with that :)

This is longer than my confession letter, pass it to Mr. Keating and you’ll be top of the class :)))

Are you proposing right now, cameron? :)))) because if you are, I’m considering it. And i’m gonna say yes. :)))

(No dyeing of hair)

@meeksandgeeks where are you? You said you’d be back from your walk by dinner and it’s long past dinner. Are you at least inside? Is someone with you? Meeksie, you’re worrying me. Please come to our dorm as soon as you can.

I’m sorry pittsie, im sorry…i don’t know if i can go back..im still outside, i went to the cave pittsie. It’s just a bit dark but its okay..

im so sirry im so fuckibg sorry meeks

please tell me youre safe right now wherevdr you are

I’m okay, cam… im with pittsie now, we’re on our way back..

good. i doht want you getting hurt meeksie

ill see yku at breakfast tomorrow mayeb :)

….yeah i guess ill see you at breakfast, cam.. :)

yeah :)

We’re back now, if you need some notes or anything…just knock… :)

ypu should be getting some sleep meeksie, how late w ere you awake last night?

but sure, ill stop by... i think I left some trig notes there the other day... :)

I don’t recall but pittsie stayed up with me…

Oh did you? Sorry my desk is a bit of a mess, sure cam :)

well... please be csreful.

unless charlie stole fhem im pretty sure theyre in there lol

see you soon i guess :)

I don’t think Charlie went here and stole a notebook so it might still be here :)

See you cam :)

See you meeksie:)

Well, thanks for uh checking in and stopping by, cam…sorry i think i lost your notes, i looked everywhere but it’s not here…

thats okay, Ill talk to charlie. Knowing him, theyre probably sitting on the roof right now or something lol

of course, meeksie, I dont mind at all... its good to see you :D

Oh yeah definitely :)

It’s good to see you too, cam :) say hello o Charlie for me..heh

...if youd like to study together today sometime, im up for jt. I dont know if im ready to talk just yet but i miss you:(

actually why dont we just turn it into a study group? @charlie-gotta-be-more-dalton @neilnotperry @toddanderson1959 @so-obknoxious @gerard-pittsie free period today? (also charlie you better return my notes for trig)

Uh yeah sure that’s okay, pittsie is free i think. Im not sure about the others…

okay sounds good :)

if you could bring your chemistry notes, i knkw both me and charlie would appreciate that since we missed ghe other day 🙃

Yeah i could bring the notes, :)

Yeah sorry about that, i think i owe my notes to you both :)

thats okay meeksie yoi couldnt have done anything about me missing :)

but thank you <3

Still, i actually wrote a copy of my notes. For you…and charlie, of course :)

thanks meeksie I really owe you one :D

Oh it’s nothing, cam :) friends remember? :))

yeah. friends. :)

I still think this looks good on you, cam :)

And i still think it doesn't. 🙃 And you can't say anything, Mr. Blonde Karen Haircut :D

And i think it’s too light, i can go darker if you really want me to dye my hair :)

Charlie thinks it suits you too so

Yeah I do please grow your hair like that

ALSO yes im down for a study group!!

M ygrades have been so bad lately I’ve been threatened with weekend lessons… I had my first this morning..

will do, dalton 🫡

how was that...? Hopefully not too horrible, though im sure anything academic is too horrible for you 🙃

Your lucky I like you cam…

It WAS horrible! Had to waste my precious Saturday morning doing trig with some hairy middle aged man

I wish I felt bad for you, Dalton...

I do try, yaknow. I really try.

Hey Char, do you need any help with homework? What'd they send you to weekend lessons for?

No it’s okay I’ve got it sorted

I’m basically failing everything but English, and I’m just passing Latin thanks to Meeks. They’re making me go to these lessons until I have passing grade again, but I really don’t like it. It’s belittling, they treat me like I’m a child just because I’m not doing well I my lessons- they think I don’t care, Neil. I do care.

fuck charlie im so os soryr I shkuldnt have said abything imbsorry

Not your fault, Cameron.

Oh- what’s happening..charlie, i could help with the other subjects as well :) not just latin. I’m sorry about cam, he’s had a rough day as well… and if it helps, i know you care :) i see your effort:)

I don’t need your help Meeks. Thanks for saying that, though.

But If I just tried harder though then maybe I could be smarter and do better in my lessons and I wouldn’t need your help and I woopdnt be so afar behind all of you

Come on, you know it’s okay to ask for help or assistance. You can always ask me for help, while doing your best Charlie.

@meeksandgeeks where are you? You said you’d be back from your walk by dinner and it’s long past dinner. Are you at least inside? Is someone with you? Meeksie, you’re worrying me. Please come to our dorm as soon as you can.

I’m sorry pittsie, im sorry…i don’t know if i can go back..im still outside, i went to the cave pittsie. It’s just a bit dark but its okay..

im so sirry im so fuckibg sorry meeks

please tell me youre safe right now wherevdr you are

I’m okay, cam… im with pittsie now, we’re on our way back..

good. i doht want you getting hurt meeksie

ill see yku at breakfast tomorrow mayeb :)

….yeah i guess ill see you at breakfast, cam.. :)

yeah :)

We’re back now, if you need some notes or anything…just knock… :)

ypu should be getting some sleep meeksie, how late w ere you awake last night?

but sure, ill stop by... i think I left some trig notes there the other day... :)

I don’t recall but pittsie stayed up with me…

Oh did you? Sorry my desk is a bit of a mess, sure cam :)

well... please be csreful.

unless charlie stole fhem im pretty sure theyre in there lol

see you soon i guess :)

I don’t think Charlie went here and stole a notebook so it might still be here :)

See you cam :)

See you meeksie:)

Well, thanks for uh checking in and stopping by, cam…sorry i think i lost your notes, i looked everywhere but it’s not here…

thats okay, Ill talk to charlie. Knowing him, theyre probably sitting on the roof right now or something lol

of course, meeksie, I dont mind at all... its good to see you :D

Oh yeah definitely :)

It’s good to see you too, cam :) say hello o Charlie for me..heh

...if youd like to study together today sometime, im up for jt. I dont know if im ready to talk just yet but i miss you:(

actually why dont we just turn it into a study group? @charlie-gotta-be-more-dalton @neilnotperry @toddanderson1959 @so-obknoxious @gerard-pittsie free period today? (also charlie you better return my notes for trig)

Uh yeah sure that’s okay, pittsie is free i think. Im not sure about the others…

okay sounds good :)

if you could bring your chemistry notes, i knkw both me and charlie would appreciate that since we missed ghe other day 🙃

Yeah i could bring the notes, :)

Yeah sorry about that, i think i owe my notes to you both :)

thats okay meeksie yoi couldnt have done anything about me missing :)

but thank you <3

Still, i actually wrote a copy of my notes. For you…and charlie, of course :)

thanks meeksie I really owe you one :D

Oh it’s nothing, cam :) friends remember? :))

yeah. friends. :)

I still think this looks good on you, cam :)

And i still think it doesn't. 🙃 And you can't say anything, Mr. Blonde Karen Haircut :D

And i think it’s too light, i can go darker if you really want me to dye my hair :)

Charlie thinks it suits you too so

Yeah I do please grow your hair like that

ALSO yes im down for a study group!!

M ygrades have been so bad lately I’ve been threatened with weekend lessons… I had my first this morning..

will do, dalton 🫡

how was that...? Hopefully not too horrible, though im sure anything academic is too horrible for you 🙃

Your lucky I like you cam…

It WAS horrible! Had to waste my precious Saturday morning doing trig with some hairy middle aged man

I wish I felt bad for you, Dalton...

I do try, yaknow. I really try.

Hey Char, do you need any help with homework? What'd they send you to weekend lessons for?

No it’s okay I’ve got it sorted

I’m basically failing everything but English, and I’m just passing Latin thanks to Meeks. They’re making me go to these lessons until I have passing grade again, but I really don’t like it. It’s belittling, they treat me like I’m a child just because I’m not doing well I my lessons- they think I don’t care, Neil. I do care.

fuck charlie im so os soryr I shkuldnt have said abything imbsorry

Not your fault, Cameron.

Oh- what’s happening..charlie, i could help with the other subjects as well :) not just latin. I’m sorry about cam, he’s had a rough day as well… and if it helps, i know you care :) i see your effort:)

@meeksandgeeks thanks... for studying with me today. even if we didnt talk about... any of this, it was nice to spend some time with you. Sorry if I made it worse lol

No worries, cam! :) we don’t have yo talk about it if you don’t want to, it’s okay :)

No you didn’t make it worse, you’re still my friend cam :)

Well... its not something we can just avoid forever right? Even if you dont say its hurting you I know it is. Im not that bad at feelings haha.

And assuming it is... i dont wanna be the one to hurt you more. I really, really dont wanna do that. so... if that means us avoiding each other for a bit or you talking about it to me, im okay with that i guess

But... thanks. youre still my friend too meeksie:))

I know we can’t avoid it forever, cam. But i really am ready to talk if you are, and i will never pressure to talk about it, ok? I want you to be comfortable..

Thank you but I think it’s clear to both of us that avoiding each other only makes it worse, cam…and i don’t mind talking to you about other things or studying..