Important post - an apology
This post will be the last one I make on this account before I fully delete it, this blog purely caused me stress and @doyoulovethewayzeylily will be reblogging it and spreading it around, I mainly wanna remove my blog for the safety of keeping my other blogs and with this my support network to move out of my abusive household
When I made this blog I made it with pure rage for the way trans men were treated in the trans community, not caring for anyone else's feelings but purely my own, which was extremely selfish to do so, sadly i do hold of selfish beliefs due to personal issues I really won't go over, but either way they are not excuses, just reasons, and I apologize sincerely to the transfem community and anyone I affected with this blog bc of my selfish actions.
And specially most of all, I apologize to ISFF for the shit I spread around, for the fact I contributed to her harassment and lies spread about her, I do have my own criticism about her in other ways, but I wont go over them in this post, if anything, those would be way better to discuss privately.
Most of my actions were very emotionally driven, cathartic and that's because I am an actual abuse victim, victim of CSA and child rape for half of my life who irl never received any help and still receive no help, except monetary help from people in Tumblr.
I am sadly not very good at apologies but I hope you understand I am striving to become better, and with that includes acknowledging my faults, I encouraged harassment even non-explicitally, I spread lies, and many things.
From what I've learned, the infamous pedophilia post, while it definetly could've been worded a bit better, wasn't just about pedophilia but specially disordered paras, disordered paras I have, and sometimes to grow from them is recognizing you have them, and as long it doesn't get to real life, why would it care? I have a diagnosed zoophilia and necrophilia disorder, and I would never hurt an animal or get on with a corpse ever, and that's what the post was about. And I reacted badly because I've been hurt by pedophiles myself, I might feel uncomfy around them even now.
But NOBODY is a bad person, bad and good doesn't exist, we are all different shades of grey, nobody is perfect either and we are all striving to become the better version of ourselves, we all can change and become better, I am trying to pretty much learn this now, which btw, it was something i used to believe but because I got into this discourse I unlearned it, which is very telling of this discourse.
But going back to the point, again, what I did was absolutely horrible and the transfem community is not obligated to forgive, and neither forget, but if you do forgive, thank you.
I hope I can strive to become a better person in this 2026, we are just starting, but I have a long journey ahead <:)
