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Gerard and his hunters blew up my cars

@sirenium / sirenium.tumblr.com

it/its, ze/hir. Adult. transmascfem, cry about it if you want. I'm marked red because I believe transandromisia exists, and I support actual AFAB transfems (despite the fact that there are bad actors, because I'm able to tell that even if there are trolls using the identity there are genuine people who shouldn't be lumped with them). no, I do not deny the existence of transmisogyny, it's just that the word 'transmisogynist' doesn't apply to me. More in pinned.
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Color photograph taken at the 1994 San Francisco Pride parade that depicts a group of trans men marching in a parade with a sign made by Loren Cameron that reads "FTM TRANS PRIDE." In the front row from left to right: Max Wolf Valerio, Matt Rice, David Harrison, Loren Cameron, and an unknown person. In the back row, in the crowd, from left to right: Susan Stryker (holding baby), Brynn Craffey, and Stephan Thorne. Digitized copy of the original photo provided by David Harrison.

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'I'm a trans man and I don't want to be called a lesbian' nobody cares. the people who are giving trans men the option to identify that way if they want to aren't telling all trans men under the sun to identify as lesbians. just because you can't tell the difference between 'trans men can be lesbians if they identify as such' and literal TERFs who think all trans men are lesbians doesn't mean you're actually being attacked by the scary lesbian FTMs. all I can hear when some trans guy says some shit like that is 'how can I make somebody's identity about me?' and that shit is honestly so insufferable. ""secondhand dysphoria"" headass.

I'm sorry if this comes off as dismissive, because it's perfectly fine to not want to label yourself that way due to dysphoria. I'm not dissing that! however, there's a certain point where I can't afford somebody much sympathy, and it's when they use their own identity to police the identities of other people. I loathe that shit, and it's honestly really hard for me to even begin to care about people who do it.

your journey isn't the only one that exists, and you do not get to tell people what to do because for some reason their identity gives you dysphoria. you have to work through that.

I think the reason why there's so much more backlash against transmasc and FTM lesboys than with transfem/MTF turigirls is because of this pervasive need to control transmascs/FTMs and our language. some people are just better at hiding it behind a facade of 'I don't want you to misgender yourself :(' instead of just saying outright that they think we're either stupid girls who can't make calls about our own identities, or predatory by nature.

I love GNC trans people. it's just so awesome to exist in that way, to present as what people expect your AGAB to present like and declare that you are another gender entirely.

I love people who do things that are considered GNC, but they don't consider it GNC themselves. as a transmasculine entity who paints its nails and wears makeup, crop tops, jewelry, and the occasional dress, I don't really see it as all that GNC. genderfucky, sure, but all of these things still feel masculine for me.

additionally, I love intersex and trans women who have facial hair and see it as part of their femininity. I love trans women who feel feminine while wearing what other people consider 'masculine'. I love trans and intersex and fat men who feel manly with boobs. I love trans men and transmascs who don't feel feminine while having a style that's considered 'feminine'. I love trans people who are simply alternative and can be labeled GNC because of that, but don't see themselves as such personally. I love the intersex people who are told they are 'basically men/women' because of how they look and/or present, but identify firmly with something else and see these so-called manly/womanly traits as part of their masculinity/femininity.

I love multigender people who consider themselves gender nonconforming, as well as the multigender people who don't. same goes for nonbinary people.

I love GNC cis (perisex) people, too. gender nonconformity is just cool as fuck in general. being yourself and rejecting the label of gender nonconforming, despite what other people may think based on your presentation and body, is also cool as fuck. may you feel less pressure to change yourself for anybody.

how 'you can't be a lesbian because you're misgendering yourself!' MFs look at me when I tell them I view them in the same light that I view TERFs who think I can be a lesbian because I'm 'not a real man':

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like, all of these people can continue trying to make calls about my identity, but I'm a grown ass man. I'm not gonna argue with them about what they think I am or what I can or cannot be, LMFAO. get a hobby instead of crying about what trans people call ourselves. 💀

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Tiktok post by @ topfreakdaddy666 (he/him).

ID: a video of a pale man with shaved eyebrows, a mustache, a labret piercing, shoulder length wavy blonde hair, a necklace with a presumably religious symbol, and a black muscle shirt. the screenshots under the video, in summary, show multiple comments of people saying they needed to hear what he had to say, how brave trans men are for living their truth, the trauma that can come from being a trans man, and how wonderful trans men are. end ID

I would much rather not involve myself in this kind of thing again, but transandrophobia discourse has become so rampant on this site that I came across somebody who denies its existence in a completely unrelated tag, so I'm back on my bullshit I guess.

ID: a screenshot of a Tumblr post that says 'just know that believing in transandrophobia makes trans women feel unsafe around you' end ID

I am so tired of hearing about how 'unsafe' people feel about... having to acknowledge bigotry? it's seriously so odd. they want to act like people like me think transmisogyny doesn't exist because we talk about transandrophobia, which is a blatant deflection tactic and, often, completely inaccurate. transandrophobia, transandromisia, antitransmasculinity, and terms like these are not dog whistles for 'transmisogyny doesn't exist lol' and the sooner you people get your heads out of your asses and realize that the better.

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when i tell people i only use it/its pronouns and that they feel euphoric and like i'm being referred to correctly, most people's immediate gut reaction is "i don't like that, i would be so uncomfortable being referred to as it/its."

i have great news for you! you won't be addressed by it/its pronouns! i will be! lucky for you, these are my pronouns, not yours, and at no point will you ever be referred to by it unless you explicitly ask me to!

whenever i explain that i feel great discomfort and dysphoria being referred to by they, he, or she, these same people suddenly fall silent and have nothing to say. imagine if every time someone told me they use they, he, or she pronouns, my immediate response was "i would be so uncomfortable being called they/he/she, i don't like that."

this reaction is one sided and is only used to target it/its users. no one else. when someone tells you their pronouns are it/its, keep your discomfort to yourself. that is your burden to bear. we have to accept that all pronoun sets, no matter how "normalized" they are, are going to make certain people feel like shit.

when a trans man asks you to use he/him pronouns because she/her pronouns makes him uncomfortable, your gut response isn't to say "he/him pronouns make me uncomfortable, i won't refer to you that way." when a trans woman asks you to use she/her pronouns because he/him pronouns makes her uncomfortable, your first reaction isn't to say "she/her pronouns make me uncomfortable, i'm not going to use them for you."

people can have bad experiences and even trauma with any set of pronouns, this is not exclusive to it/its. there are trans men across the world who feel like absolute shit when people use she/her pronouns for them, there are trans women across the globe who feel like absolute shit when people use he/him pronouns for them. nobody seems to consider this. any pronouns can cause discomfort.

don't single in on it/its users. don't make the first comment out of your mouth be about yourself. don't make someone else's pronouns about you. keep your personal discomfort with those pronouns to yourself. that is not the it/its cross to bear: that is yours. you don't get to decide what pronouns a stranger can and can't use, that's not your choice, you don't get to make it for them.

important addition from the tags:

it's genuinely so frustrating. I don't care if you're uncomfortable, it's not your identity that gets disrespected every time I say 'my pronouns are it/its' and someone just doesn't use it/its. I notice every single they/them that's used in the place of the pronouns I specified, and where I'd usually be fine with they/them, I'm becoming less and less okay with those pronouns because of how people will use that set as a placeholder. I notice when they are being avoidant of respecting my identity. for what reason? THEIR discomfort?

I'm less likely to tell a stranger I go by neopronouns, so I don't throw a fit when I'm he/him'd by strangers. that's one thing, but for other queer people to they/them me or he/him me when I say 'it/its and ze/hir, please and thank you' or just 'it/its, thanks'? GODDD. how are they so dense about how it feels to not have one's pronouns respected? do they think it's different just because he/she/they aren't my main pronouns? am I suddenly an exception? am I not allowed to be uncomfortable by the DELIBERATE DODGING of my pronouns? is my identity too scary for them? fuck, man.

Am the one who's noticed how fucking weird people get about transmasc bottom surgery?

There's a ridiculous amount of body shaming and fear mongering about phalloplasty and metoidioplasty and I feel like I'm the only one who ever talks about it. The constant "well it's not a real penis/it's not a cis penis/ect" drives me nuts.

Especially when someone is talking about how they WANT bottom surgery and someone butts in like "l just don't think it fits my ✨aesthetic✨" as if anyone asked how much they hate phallo/metoidio

Have you noticed this?? Please tell me you have, I can't be the only one who finds it weird. It's actually incredibly disheartening as someone who wants metoidio to constantly see. If I said half the shit I see said about phallo/metoidio, about vaginoplasty instead people would lose it

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I don't know how the hell I missed this message, but it's possible I saw it and didn't know how to reply at the time (I also have the tendency to have things slip my mind if I don't address it quickly enough). regardless, I have indeed noticed the behavior you're referring to. I, myself, have been affected by the rampant fearmongering around phallo/metoidio to the point that it affects my desire to get bottom surgery. That fucking sucks. I wish people could stop making those of us with bottom dysphoria feel like we'll never get a sufficient solution to the problem.

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faggypuppywhore-deactivated2024

"But its easier for trans men to closet themselves and if they get found out there isn't as much risk"

can you talk to trans men please

nobody listens to trans men or thinks about trans men, that's why some people don't even realize we exist. The absolute erasure of trans men and their experiences makes people say this kind of shit. 'It's easier to be a trans man' or 'it's easier to go stealth as a trans man' or 'there's no consequence to being a trans man or outed as such'. it is so fucking brainless; do these people think we aren't clockable at all? I was clocked as a 'tomboy' by our neighbor and unless you've been living under a rock people really don't like masc women, either. So if you fail for one second to perform feminine womanhood, you are fucked. Gender noncomformity is just as dangerous to perform as performing another gender than the one people expect you to be. So even if the trans man in question gets clocked as a butch woman instead, he's still not gonna have a good fucking time. And, even if the trans man manages to present as a hyperfem woman, he's still gonna hate his fucking life and that is not an easy thing to live through. So the risk there would be fucking suicide.

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Thinking about those claims that “trans women have to spend hours getting ready to pass but trans men just have to throw on a hoodie” while reading this full chapter about how to pass as a trans guy in Lou Sullivan’s book. Much of it requires being very wealthy to get the right clothes (and wear nothing colorful and fun). Some of the other advice is to cut out sideburns, shave your peach fuzz, darken your eyebrows/use makeup to make you look older and more masc, work out to combat thin arms and “dainty” hands, keep fingernails short, and of course bind and pack properly. There’s a lot of advice about body language and acting masc. And man does it hit as someone a couple years on T that still rarely gets gendered properly even by people who know I’m trans and try their best.

I used to dress in a manner that got me misgendered often. I had colored hair, did my makeup, and even wore the occasional skirt. Now I have the most boring outfit routine known to man, but at least I get gendered 'correctly' now! give me a break. At least I'm trying to expand my gender expression to be more comfortable than rigid expectations of masculinity; this shit is actively sucking all the fun out of the world for me because I am meant to break and explore gender roles, and here I am ensnared by what people expect a man presenting person to dress like.

and I don't mean to shit on masculine fashion, but it's just so bland unless you want to risk getting misgendered by exploring the world of much more visually appealing alternative subcultures. So tired of people holding transmascs to a standard of bland ass generic white guy masculinity (not that there's anything inherently wrong with the style, it's just super unappealing to me personally), because that leaves so much unexplored, so much emptiness in some of our lives. It's not empowering to everybody and I'm tired of people acting like it is, that is if they acknowledge the fact that we have to do this shit at all. It seems like most of the time people love to water down the transmasculine experience to something so easy and devoid of restrictive expectations and I'm tired of that too.

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What is transandrophobia and why is it called that? By the guy who coined it and is kind of tired of seeing it defined in the opposite of what it's meant to describe.

In it's most simple definition. Transandrophobia is the way that the fear of men impacts the material reality and mental/physical health of transgender men.

Transandrophobia, is the way that the fear of men and/or masculinity effects transgender men’s ability to access queer and transgender spaces, sexual assault survivor resources, and reproductive health care.

Transandrophobia, is the way that the fear of men and/or masculinity holds back transgender men from transitioning or from presenting as masculine.

Transandrophobia, is the way the fear of men and/or masculinity results in the disowning of transgender men from previous found families and the isolation of transgender men in general.

Transandrophobia, is the way the fear of men and/or masculinity has resulted in people using their trauma as an excuse for abusing transgender men, physically, sexually, and emotionally.

Transandrophobia, is the way the fear of men has resulted in people refusing admittance to “male identified people” to certain queer events and safe spaces.

Transandrophobia, is the way that the fear of masculinity has led to people assuming that butches across the gender spectrum are inherently violent and hyper-sexual.

Transandrophobia, is the way that the fear of men and/or masculinity results in the forced feminization of transgender men in queer spaces, with the insistence that those who refuse to feminize themselves to make others more comfortable should not be allowed entrance to certain queer spaces.

Transandrophobia, is the way that the fear of men has led people to assuming that butches who were assigned female at birth, are at risk of becoming the enemy (a man) and should not be given the same amount of trust as a feminine presenting cis woman.

Transandrophobia, is when that the fear of men being in women’s spaces prevents trans men and non-binary people who present as male from accessing gynecological care, abortions, and birth control.

Transandrophobia, is when transgender men must make themselves smaller to be seen as “one of the good ones” and it is when a trans man who is loud or sexual or Black or Brown or too masculine is seen as a threat to the safety of other transgender people.

Transandrophobia, is when transgender men who speak up about how the normalized way of speaking ill about men in feminist and queer spaces has made them activity suicidal, de-transition, or prevented them from transitioning, are told to “shut up and sit down” or “good.”

Transandrophobia, is not when trans men face misogyny – that is just a trans man facing misogyny (which all trans men face, because misogyny and sexism effects everyone, not just women). However, transandrophobia is when someone says that trans men don’t face misogyny because they are men, make claims that trans men benefit from misogyny since they are men, or insist that trans men’s experiences with misogyny aren’t as valid or as bad as when a woman or non-male person faces misogyny.

Transandrophobia, is when trans men’s struggles are dismissed as being less important, because men don’t need help or men already have help or men don't face real struggles.

Transandrophobia, is when people refuse to acknowledge that the patriarchy see’s transgender men as failed women and not men, which is why transgender men do bot benefit from the patriarchy but are instead violently and systematically punished by it.

Transandrophobia is that and a whole lot more, I would need a book to describe the entirety of the issue, I have been writing a book on it for over six years and re-writing it over and over because if I say it wrong, or say it with too much emotion, or not enough emotion, or with too many numbers, or not enough numbers, and publish it without using perfect wording, trans men might not get another chance to speak up for a long ass time and we will once again have to find new words to say "Pretty please treat me like a human being and let me have access to the things I need in order to survive." and "Pretty please consider that if a large group of people from a minority are telling you they are being oppressed by these actions and fears, then maybe you should believe them or at least the material statistical evidence of that oppression, since you probably trust journals more than us describing our reality and lived experiences."

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